Everybody is pretending!

Everybody is pretending.  We pretend we know it all. We pretend we have the best life. We pretend we know ourselves better than everyone else.  We pretend that we are not pretending.  Sometimes I wonder how many people live stuck in an image they have created of who they are supposed to be. Most of us are pretending that we are happy when we are not.  I wonder how many people bury themselves behind insecurities. Why are we so insecure anyway?  We pretend nothing bothers us when it does.  We pretend we are not hurting when we are. Its just so funny to me that we hide our true selves in front of others. We pretend our insecurities don't govern us, when they do. Sometimes I wonder what the world would be like if we couldn't hide behind a mask. What would relationships would be like if we were honest about our hurt or insecuritues. I believe a reason why we lie and deceive others is because we lie and deceive ourselves.  It's so hard to be honest with ourselves.  Are you honest with yourself? Do you forgive yourself?

No one has it all together all the time. No one is happy all the time. No one has everything they desire at every moment in their life. It is just not possible. I don't know who pretend more, men or women. At the end of the day we are all pretending.  We pretend our marriage is perfect,  we pretend we were never abused. We pretend we don't have insecurities. We pretend we don't have family pain. We pretend we don't hate ourselves. We pretend we love ourselves. We pretend we like others when they remind us of who we want to be.

So stop pretending and start healing.  

We learn to pretend so much it becomes innate. Pretending becomes second nature.  Not realizing that everything we do is a lie, until we learn to be honest with ourselves.  Until we learn to forgive ourselves, we can't be our true selves.  Forgive ourselves for being so hard on ourselves, for not loving ourselves. For not being honest with ourselves, for putting others before ourselves.  Forgive ourselves for disappointmenting ourselves, for allowing others to hurt us, for hurting ourselves, for settling for less, forgive ourselves for pretending. Forgive ourselves for blaming ourselves. We pretend we don't have addictions.  We pretend we don't have demons.  We pretend we never cry. We are so good at pretending.

We are so busy trying to keep up the image we created about who we are supposed to  be or how we "should" feel about ourselves, we slowly lose ourselves. 

Sometimes insecurities dig us deeper in denial ....and unhappiness......but .....the funny thing is, when we expose those things we keep a secret then they can't haunt us anymore. 

-QueenPoetLove